| i don't understand this feeling, but it's reminding me that you don't have to understand everything, better yet: you can't understand everything. feelings aren't meant to be explained. it just is, they just happen.
these feelings i get are another way in which i view the world... aside from perceiving it with my eyes, i can feel.... at first, i felt this feeling was going to kill me, but now i realize that this feeling keeps me alive and has been doing so for the past months since....
many things have come clear to me today and i can be at peace with more things now than i was before.
yesterday was sadness i think, but i was glad to hear it again from someone who had no idea i knew about it already from another source. it should have confirmed the information to me, but i still doubted.... until today, i know it's there, and it scares me because aside from that there's still so much more. but what can be done? it can't be explained, nothing can be explained....
tendre que continuar y tratare de transmitir los sentimientos nesesitados. solo uno lo construye y solo uno puede entender, si te olvidas de lo que ya te has acostumbrado y empiezas por ver todo lo que esta a tu alrededor como si lo estuvieras viendo por primera vez. haciendo esto podras ver algo mas de lo que "esta ahi" sentiras todo lo que se nesesita sentir para saber que no todo se puede explicar, pero al menos lo puedes sentir.
i have to continue and i'll try to transmit the feelings that are needed. only one can construct and only one can understand , but if you forget about all the things you have made a habit and start by viewing your surroundings as if you were seeing everything for the first time, you will be able to see more than what's "just there" you will feel everything that is needed to know that not everything can be explained, but at least you could feel it.
Tormenta(Thunderstorm)
La Tristeza Que Refleja Tu Cara,
Tus Ojos
Aferrados A Pensamientos Perdidos, y
La Seriedad De Tus Labios....
En Ti Pienso Durante Esta Tormenta
La Realidad Que Refleja Tu Cara
Tu No Te Escondes
Tus Ojos No Finjen
Cuentan La Historia De Un Mundo Corrupto
Y Los Desafortunados
Que Han Vivido Y Muerto En El
Tus Labios Son Sagrados
Verdaderos A Su Palabra
Las Palabras Que Todos Quieren Escuchar
Pero No Quieren Creer
Tus Labios, Aun Palidos
Pero Tan Perfectos
Porque No Has Esforzado Una Sonrisa
Entre Lluvia Y Relampagos
Viviendo En Un Mundo Que Se Arrepiente De Ser
La Tormenta Es Nuestra Realidad
-ruby lizet
From A Spider's Perspective
There she is lying on her bed,
Staring at the ceiling,
Thinking about her love
It can't be anything else
She has that special look on her face
And she's sighing every 7 seconds
I've seen her grow
I've seen her sleep
I've seen her think
Laugh after laugh
Tear after tear
Sigh after sigh
I know her every gesture
I know how she feels just by observing her actions.
I know her very well
Maybe even more than the others...
The others, like her, who come into this room.
I sit still in this corner
Afraid as to how she will react if she sees me,
But I know her
And I've seen her go through so many things in this room
If I come down from this corner at this moment
-What have I got to lose?
I come down
She looks at me, and
She lets me live
-ruby lizet
what i knew:
"do you see these two trees? keep walking straight here..... he has yellow colored eyes.... you can find me here...." -z
"he's my friend he's...." -c "he says he's his friend, he calls him...." -a "he was my friend too.... where's c?....c are you okay?! hurry get away from there!" -b
other events happened after this and now it's like nothing has happened.... but i found out about it just yesterday. If i knew what had happened before, i would have gone to z, i could have seen.... then again why shouldn't i believe? it would be too much of a coincidence. it scares me to know this exists, yet at the same time i like the feeling....
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I'M SO F'N HAPPY BEYOND WORDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
